From heartbreak to peacefulness
After losing a friend to drugs, one woman finds healing through intuition, psychic mediumship and trusting her inner voice.
Trigger warning: This story contains themes readers may find upsetting.
Many years ago, I lost a friend. We were 23. It rocked my world. He died from drugs. Although no one would have called him an addict, that’s what it was. We all took party drugs, but the amount he took exceeded normal levels. Eventually, his body gave up.
He was fun on drugs and I fell for this. We had a short love affair just before I left for Amsterdam. Not on drugs, he was a different person with zero self-esteem and no longer fun. I was kind of glad I was leaving and getting out of this sticky mess I’d gotten myself into.
He hadn’t wanted me to leave. He had told me I was the best thing that ever happened to him. But I still left. I was in London, at a friend’s place, when I was told the news. What followed was like a mini hell. I blamed myself. One of the strongest memories I have from this time is standing on the platform waiting for the tube, and as the train came, telling myself to jump in front of it. I didn’t, thank God.
The guilt I felt from abandoning him wracked me for years. Finally, two decades later, I found my cure. I saw a psychic medium.
Over the years, I had seen many psychics. I found it fascinating how someone could accurately describe parts of my life. I seemed to always go when I was at a crossroads in my life or some decision was weighing on my mind. I always walked away feeling clearer, more confident and knowing what I had to do.
During this reading, after the psychic part (psychic is connecting with spirit for life guidance; mediumship is connecting with the spirit of someone passed), I asked if we could connect with him. It was the first time I had experienced this. I was blown away.
The medium described him perfectly, even things I didn’t know. She shared messages from him — that he’d been deeply depressed since high school and didn’t know what to do about it. That he wasn’t thinking about his actions and what he was doing to himself. He reassured me there was nothing that I or anyone could have done and acknowledged he had support around him. He said he was sorry if he ever hurt me and was grateful for the connection we had. He was at peace.
I cannot begin to describe how much this information helped me. All the pain I had in my heart around him dissolved. I could absolve myself from any responsibility and know I was appreciated.
At the time, I was also getting into developing my intuition, the precursor for psychic ability. I’ve always been highly intuitive and made decisions simply by tuning in and listening to that gut feeling
Two seemingly small moments became a turning point. Conversations with my personal trainer and hairdresser had triggered mini panic attacks. I had a cascade of anxious thoughts and couldn’t breathe properly when thinking about it. I had known not to say anything, and I didn’t listen. From that moment on, I decided I was always going to listen to my sixth sense, my gut feeling, my inner knowing.
I embarked on a journey of learning, starting with borrowing books from the library, reading and doing exercises that expanded my psychic ability, meeting my spirit guides and asking for signs from the universe to yes/no questions. I continued with a course and one-on-one mentoring. At first, it was for me but, before I knew it, I accidentally became a psychic.
As a professional psychic, I’m learning there is a great deal of responsibility placed on me by clients. I hold space for people in their most vulnerable moments. Sometimes it’s life guidance; sometimes it’s connecting with someone they’ve lost. Readings are about healing and helping others
This whole journey has been incredibly healing. The decision I made to always listen to my intuition turned into a journey that connected me to universe, to something bigger than myself. I have gone from being overly anxious, excessively worried and unable to make decisions at times, to a person who is, overall, clear minded without a lot of white noise (the brain chatter that goes on and on).
I no longer feel alone. I know that universe, or my spirit team, have always got my back.
Deciding to strengthen my intuition was one of the best decisions I’ve made. You don’t have to become a psychic medium to strengthen your intuition. Anyone can do this.
Each day, tune in and ask yourself, “What feelings are coming up? What do I hear? What am I feeling? What thoughts are dropping in?” Take notes. Take as long or as little time as you like. This is the universe giving you guidance. The more you listen, the stronger it gets. You just have to listen.
If you or someone you know needs support, contact the National Alcohol and Other Drug Hotline on 1800 250 015 or Lifeline on 13 11 14.
